Best of Rainbow Reading 2020

It’s time to look back at 2020 and highlight my favorite LGBTQ reads of the year! I read a total of 332 LGBTQ books and I enjoyed the vast majority of them, which made narrowing down my favorites a struggle (as evidenced by the sheer number of books in this post).

I changed up the format a bit this year, but as always, these selections are based on my personal enjoyment of the books, not necessarily their literary quality or critical merit.

Without further ado…here are my favorite LGBTQ reads of 2020!

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Two Years on Testosterone

Today marks two years since I started taking low-dose testosterone. “Two years” sounds like such a long stretch of time. A lot has changed in the last two years, but at the same time it feels like nothing’s changed at all. My voice has dropped significantly, my face has changed in subtle but noticeable ways, I’ve gained muscle, my body hair has increased, and I have the tiniest bit of facial hair. I look and sound and feel different than I did two years ago, but it’s not drastic.

I wasn’t expecting drastic; I didn’t even want drastic. I started at an infinitesimal dose and even now, after titrating up twice, I’m still only at a typical “starting” dose.

When I started testosterone, I wasn’t interested so much in being more masculine as I was in being less feminine. A year before I started HRT, I was convinced I wouldn’t want testosterone at all, because “the idea of growing a beard feels just as wrong as having breasts does. I don’t want to be or look like a man. I just also don’t want to be or look like a woman”.

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